One step at a time

2012-02-07T16:14:00.000+08:00

Every single time i feel stress out.
I tell my mum i dun want to study anymore,
buy me tickets and let me fly to Paris!

2012-02-02T22:40:00.002+08:00

Need to guard my heart and prevent it from being so vulnerable yet again.
Someday, someone will come by and take over this job right?

2012-01-15T00:38:00.001+08:00

Step out. Step up.

2012-01-08T01:37:00.001+08:00

Im going to head out and explore.
All the best to me and my big dreams ~

2012-01-05T20:40:00.000+08:00

It's here!

2012-01-03T17:46:00.001+08:00

Awesome work ~ Click

2012-01-01T18:42:00.001+08:00

What happen in the past wasnt love.
It was stupidity, my stupidity (:

2012-01-01T15:16:00.001+08:00

I guess i have found what i want to do in life. Never felt it so strong before.
I will just have to find my way there somehow, step by step.
Well, it wouldnt be achievable in this few years time,
there is still time for me to work things out to see if this is really what i want.
So need to step out of my comfort zone, im so excited ~

There is just somethings that you need to get it done before you grow old.
Catch that opportunity and go for it. It maybe your one and only chance ~

2012-01-01T01:46:00.002+08:00

Awesome start of the year. Loving every moment now :D
Hope this feeling stays forever.

2011-12-31T20:31:00.000+08:00

Feeling awesome already. Hahah.
Thanks too all those textings around.
2012 will be a good year, am feelig it already :D

2011-12-31T17:06:00.000+08:00

I guess, no matter how hard i try,
there is just some awkwardness that i can nv overcome.
Screw me, i feel like a extreme loser right now.
What a way to end the year!

Idk what you are to me,
I really dk why you are affecting me so hard!
I think you feel it too and try to avoid me the same way,
But i think that just made me feel worse.
Dun think even think you will see this
But i will try to face you strongly next time.

2011-12-28T22:17:00.000+08:00

Falling slowly ~ definitely one of those songs that makes me tear.
There is just something i find attractive
about guys who sings or play instruments.
The special feeling that touches the heart easily.

2011-12-22T18:26:00.003+08:00

asdbasgiuabva

sahdhgbiasudg

saigubsaidgbb

BANG~

2011-12-18T02:57:00.002+08:00

As we grow older, it seems like we have lesser time.
Lesser time with friends, lesser time to play.
Maybe that’s the reason why people don’t want to grow up.
-Unknown

2011-12-17T02:31:00.000+08:00

After so many days, the fear found its way back to me.
Need i say more?

2011-12-15T03:17:00.000+08:00

What will i be doing in a few years down the road?
Le Cordon Bleu, you seems so far away from me.

I dun hope to make it big.
I dun hope to be a millionaire.
I just hope for a job that i truly enjoy!

2011-12-11T22:39:00.000+08:00

A comfortable meetup. I like really :D
If only everyday can be like today~

2011-12-08T02:47:00.002+08:00

And every night, the fear grew stronger.

Ohmy ohmy, i need to be brave and face it.

It's coming faster than expected, right smack in the face.

I need to freakingly react fast. Im scared :(

2011-12-07T03:14:00.000+08:00

There is so much in the head that i cant fall asleep, this is bad.
I guess i have unknowingly locked myself up from the outer world.

2011-12-07T00:52:00.000+08:00

Fight the fear.
So many a things to counter.
I should seriously stop worrying and start making things work :D

2011-12-01T03:40:00.001+08:00

Getting use to sleeping late at night
or maybe not even sleeping at all :D
This is the only available time im able to reflect.
The sight at which the sky turns bright is pretty awesome too.

2011-11-29T00:53:00.000+08:00

Post Exam Syndrome ~
Ended semester1 last Friday has yet done anything meaningful.
When the mind is freed from studying, all the craps will come.

Lots of things have been going in and out of the brain lately.
& I have just made up my mind :D
We are all young only for once,
so im just let it all out even if i will ends up looking like a fool.

2011-11-28T01:12:00.000+08:00

Need a change. Life is so uninteresting right now.

2011-11-24T23:15:00.000+08:00

Trying my freak best to calm down now.

I think before i graduate i might already went bonkers.

I might have a high chance to be a school drop out.
This is no joke, im dead seriously.

Holding on for as long as i can, cant wait to graduate soon~

2011-11-24T23:06:00.000+08:00

Dying under pressure seriously~
Who says Uni was easy, dun need to study?
They have got to be kidding me man!
Or is it the fact that more than half of my module people is not Sporeans?
Last paper tmr, but im really freaking out now. Screw me man. Why i so dumb!

2011-11-22T17:16:00.002+08:00

So pretty, i want~ LOL Random~

2011-11-19T00:49:00.000+08:00

If i say i love you, will you say the same to me?
If the answer is no, then please be nice and leave me alone will you? :D

2011-11-09T14:27:00.000+08:00

Your past shapes who you are today.
That is exactly why im a werido today.
Hahahahah :'(

2011-11-09T00:05:00.000+08:00

I will survive. More like i must.
alright, I MUST SURVIVE~
Need to nail this deep into my brain.
Force myself forward no matter how reluctant im.
The sad life of a university student D:
Gonna have a crazy december, i promise!

2011-11-07T19:46:00.000+08:00

Last week of semester!
It's gonna be another tough one,
But i will survive. I have to.
Not only to survive but make it a good one!
Just need to hangon and keep focus.
Everything will end soon~

I manage to stay kind of focus today
and made today a productive day :D
Although i can do better, really, but nothing can be perfect.

2011-11-07T12:56:00.000+08:00

The life of a saddist.
Good grades wouldnt come to me if i dun study (cause im not born smart like others D: )
But i really counldnt focus anymore,
i know i have to but i just cant push myself further anymore.
How like that? Discipline discipline!!!

2011-11-05T23:27:00.000+08:00

Sometimes when you look at other people your age and compare,
you just feel that your life sucks like mad!
Okayeeee, i mean if you are watching kpop shows or whatever,
people out there our age are just having so much funnnnn~
I just cant deny that im jealous!!!
Need to get out of this studying routine quick.

Four more days of school for the semester.
One week of study week.
Three days of exam and im done!
Looking forward to dec, i got so much i want to do.

Got to stay focus!
There is a paper on 9 and i havent start studying for it!
Pray for me people. Lol :D

2011-11-04T03:22:00.002+08:00

Let's work harder.
Success is within the reach.
I have come far, I just need to go forward still :D

2011-11-04T00:34:00.003+08:00

Why did the song just feels so right, in the wrong way (emotional).
Now im addicted and feeling all so wrong.
Ahahahah, wrong song choice i guessed.
Hooked. Not good.

2011-11-02T15:09:00.002+08:00

Marriage wouldnt last forever.
Even if it does, love wouldnt.

2011-10-30T23:05:00.001+08:00

Have been lying to myself as always.
Im a huge dumbass!

2011-10-26T23:37:00.000+08:00

Give me one of those and i will be the happiest person on Earth now.
5mins ago, i was blogging about what should i do.
5mins later, i did what my brain told me to.
And now i will just have to wait impatiently :D
My 'do first and think later' mindset will kill me sooner or later.

2011-10-26T23:25:00.000+08:00

Im not sure what should i do now.
You seems happy and im afraid my reappearance in your life isnt a good thing.
Should i just stand here and wait or follow what my mind tells me?
But well, im not that kinda person who can hold on to sth for long!
Uncertainty kills me faster than anything else.

2011-10-25T23:22:00.000+08:00

Two different people talk to me about the same topic today.
Call this qiao or what. And it sent me thinking again.
Well, when it comes it will larh hor?
At least im happy alone for now, i guess :D

2011-10-23T23:53:00.000+08:00

Went to create a fb account for the sick of school's work.
So i went looking around, viewing other peoples profile.
And when i came across this particular person,
my thoughts totally collapsed.

Someone whom i really treasure.
Someone whom i felt comfortable with.
Someone whom i wanted to keep by my side.
Someone i really love and feel like protecting.
Someone i left behind.
Someone i lost due to my stupidity.
Someone i wish to find back,
A mixed of thoughts currently.

I stucked me hard how stupid i was in the past.
How i choose to walk out of everything and let them go.
How i thought i would be fine leaving the past behind.
How i thought study was more important then spending time with people..
Well, basically i think studies screwed my life upside down.

Tons and millions of things to do.
Feeling so lousy right now that i cant be bothered to do anything.
I have been losing too much, too much to studies.
I really do miss her so much.
Not sure if things could go back to the past,
but if there was a chance i will grab it and turn things around,
i feel so guilty towards her, i want to do something, just a little something for her.

Ahhhhhhhhh crap, this is just a random stupid shiity feeling post.
My mind is so occupied with thoughts that i dunno what im typing.
I just need a space to express myself.

Wait till holiday comes, im going to fixed everything back into place.
I promise.

2011-10-22T13:20:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i just dun understand why im taking this path when i dun like it in the first place.
I mean not that i dun like the modules im taking right now,
but this studying process is just killing me, bit by bit.

2011-10-22T13:12:00.000+08:00

Wake up early in the morning
and the first think i that came into my mind was studying.
At that moment in time, i wish i do not have to wake up, forever.
Such lousy feeling~ :'(

2011-10-22T00:32:00.002+08:00

No where near the ending even though the ending is so near.
Things are piling up way faster than i can clear them away.
Screwed completely, i just need a break but couldnt afford to.

2011-10-16T12:45:00.002+08:00

2011-10-16T12:24:00.003+08:00

It's Sunday.
And there are still so many things to do.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ 4more weeks. 4more weeks. Hangon!

I just feel like sleeping now though.
Had a ridiculously werid nightmare ytd night D:
Cant even enjoy a peaceful sleep!

2011-10-16T00:58:00.002+08:00

At the crossroad of life.
Should i follow my passion or do what's best for the future?
What if my passion wouldnt bring me far enough?

2011-10-14T23:11:00.001+08:00

I need a bigger heart to except your everything.

2011-10-14T20:26:00.002+08:00

This week had by far be the best week of my university life.
So productive and happy with my progress.
With simple meetups and short slacking sessions.

Anyway, i doubt she will see this,
but well, i just need to say, thankyou friend, for making me this (:

Im so glad to have you in my life.
Sorry for those time i hurt you unknowingly, i love you, my dear friend :D

2011-10-13T22:42:00.000+08:00

Im should so consider myself to be the luckiest person on Earth.
So many things happened this week
and im seriously grateful to those that helped me out in anything & everything.
After tomorrow, i will be freed a little.
But well, basically, i just wanna say thankyou to everyone around.
Im so so so so happy to have you all ard,
be it teachers friends seniors ex teachers family. Just everyone :'( Apprieciated.
Back to mad rush my works, Byebye.

I will study harder and score! Trust me! :D
I will do you people proud.

2011-10-12T23:19:00.000+08:00

I really dun feel like giving up.
Well, at least not now.
About to complete 1/8 of my university life.
It's awesome, im loving it
but the workload is killing :(

2011-10-12T00:41:00.000+08:00

Once again, im being saved by the seniors.
Ahhhh, how many times must a say im so grateful towards them.
Really appreciated for those helps. Couldnt be happier (:
Next two weeks will be chiong-ing project time.
Please give me the support i need and stop all troubles coming my way.

2011-10-10T01:02:00.000+08:00

One Project down. Phewwwww~
And sometimes being selfish is the only way to survive?
I know that they are having their midterms and yet i still went to disturb them w qns.
But i really dk how to do, i really tired before asking. Really~ Im sorry :(

2011-10-09T17:08:00.001+08:00

Need to stay positive. It's hard!

2011-10-09T00:23:00.002+08:00

The net is such an strong magnet,
it is attracting me everywhere but not work!
Gosh, slap face >:(

2011-10-09T00:07:00.000+08:00

One word to discribe my life now: Studying.
I have been practically studying 24/7.
Like seriously, i have never study so hard in my life before.
But Uni made me realise how fast i can really adapt to the new enviroment :D
I will get stronger and better by the day, just hold on!

2011-10-09T00:01:00.000+08:00

FMS1026P im gonna conquer you right now. Be nice.
Dedicating tomorrow for MA1102R.
Done with the rest of the modules currently.
Hopefully i dun dsappoint myself with my progress later on and tmr.
Fightening~

2011-10-08T15:41:00.001+08:00

After this weekend, i will be a happier person.
Chiong-ing all the works currently, i might just die.
HAHAHAHAHAH.

2011-10-07T23:12:00.001+08:00

11:11
why i always see you?

2011-10-07T19:23:00.000+08:00

FM1206P i hate you so much.
Why you want me to do some project that doesnt interest me & it isnt even graded.
RAHHHHHHH~ Waste my time. I dun wanna do. Can?

Right right right, im complaining, so what >:(

2011-10-06T21:15:00.000+08:00

因为长大了知道有些话不能再和你说
因为长大了了解以前我们都错了
因为长大了对的时间过去了
因为长大了开始疏远了
因为长大了我变了

2011-10-06T16:40:00.000+08:00

Work harder for five more weeks
and my fate for semester1 will be sealed.
This five weeks will be long~

2011-10-06T14:10:00.000+08:00

So many things to do.
Stop complaining. Stop finding excuses. And stop regretting.
Maybe you will end up completing the workload faster!
So can you just shutup and do your work?
Your words are so super irritating~

2011-10-05T20:37:00.001+08:00

It's Wednesday!
I still have 5webcast, 2quizzes, 1project & 10tutorials/assignments to do.
So much for wanting to revise and time is just tick ticking away~
Totally out of control~

2011-10-05T17:56:00.002+08:00

I will make myself strong
so that i only rely on myself and no one else.
Then there wouldnt be a time where i will have to dishengxiaqi
and ask for help from other people that i dislike (:

2011-10-05T17:45:00.000+08:00

Stupid ants conqured my food.
They must be thinking 'Stupid people left food there for them.'
-_____-

2011-10-04T19:01:00.001+08:00

Was impressed with how my lecturer manage to finish a lesson
covering 64slides in 22mins and 32secs.
OMGGG, she talks like a bullet train,
Kept replaying the webcast, trying to jolt down notes.
And when i said replay, i really meant REPLAYYYYYYYYYYYY~
What the shit, this is so tortuing can!

2011-10-04T18:54:00.000+08:00

Have been neglecting too many people in life due to studies.
Sometimes i really wish that i can view studies lightly,
i mean well, heck caring about results and stuff and just make sure i gradute.
If only i have that mindset, i think i really will be a happier person.

Things are pilling up, and i swear i did work hard.
Hahah, maybe im just too slow.
Teach me how to take things slowly~

2011-10-03T09:07:00.002+08:00

14 webcast to catch.
But within the first half and hour of my first webcast.
Im already feeling the sleepy-ness~

2011-10-02T23:50:00.000+08:00

Screwed up plan.
Havent been touching any books since last friday.
I will work hard from tmr onwards. Promise!
Fighting~ (:

2011-10-01T11:03:00.000+08:00

Term Paper due in a month time. That's fast.
Our group have just barely started with the project.
Final paper is on the 9Now.
Jam packed.

2011-09-30T23:54:00.000+08:00

Clearing millions of mails from weeks and weeks and weeks ago.
Have got hundreds more to go. This is so torturing.
Anyway, seven more minutes to October.

Dear October, please be nice to me.
I will work hard really, so have mercy on me.
Consistency needed~

2011-09-30T18:49:00.000+08:00

Mid Terms are over.
E-learning week next, so happy that i wouldnt be going to school the whole of next week.
I will work hard from home and catch up with what i have lacked behind.
So many things to do, listing them all out is already giving me a headache.
Argh~ Jiayou. Halfway there for semester1.
6 more weeks to final paper, I will work harder to prevent regrets.
Uni life is flying by. Im so happy that it is passing quickly but it is too quick for me, really!

2011-09-26T21:55:00.000+08:00

I feel like crying in her arms.
Telling her how hard i tried but i still didnt do well.
Listening to her saying that i will be fine and everything will past soon.
Having her comforting me till i feel better.
But something is holding me back.
And things are a bit hard for me to take it all alone.
I know im not okayeee, so stop telling me that im.
I believe i know myself better than anyone of you.
So, i guess, finally a breakdown.
This week is so horrible and it is only Monday.

2011-09-17T23:36:00.000+08:00

Heck it.
It is just not the time to care about others right now.

2011-09-16T10:24:00.000+08:00

休息是为了走更长远的路
可是为什么我昨天休息了那么久今天还是不想走路呢？

2011-09-15T18:37:00.000+08:00

Saw a group of kids playing skipping by the pool side when i come home just now.
Reminds me of the good old time during PE last year.
When all of us were jumping happily together :D
Someone should have took some photos or video it down then.

2011-09-12T14:30:00.003+08:00

Whoever you are,
Dun show me your true heart!
Cause i wouldnt give you mine in return.

So sorry, i lost my ability to do it.

2011-09-11T22:13:00.001+08:00

Life is too short
I cant carry on life like that.
People grow up, and perspective of life changes i guess.

Need to relook into what i really want.
Everyday is just a cycle right now
& im looking for an escape.

No, im not backing out from anything,
i just need change.

2011-09-06T22:01:00.000+08:00

I can no longer fight my negative thoughts~

2011-09-04T02:50:00.002+08:00

Everyone desevre that someone special~

2011-09-04T02:45:00.001+08:00

Looks are decieving.
When one looks happy, they're not.
When one looks sad, they arent truely sad.
Get it? Yes, it is kinda complicated.

Maybe i have let things go a long time ago,
it's just that i didnt realise quick enough.
Happy with how things are right now,
but its just, something is still slacking~
Nothing can be perfect i guess~

2011-09-01T23:51:00.004+08:00

STAY STRONG, KAITING~!
deep down inside, im withering away~

2011-09-01T00:49:00.001+08:00

No one said life was easy.
I just gotta keep on going.
& stop comparing myself with others.
All i have to do, is to outdo myself and no one else.

2011-08-30T00:07:00.000+08:00

Your past life diagnosis:

I don't know how you feel about it, but you were female in your last earthly incarnation.You were born somewhere in the territory of modern Spain around the year 1350. Your profession was that of a artist, magician or fortune teller.

Your brief psychological profile in your past life:
As a natural talent in psychology, you knew how to use your opportunities. Cold-blooded and calm in any situation.

The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation:
Your task is to learn determination and persistency. Youd should not allow to let misfortunes take influence on your strong will.

Hmmmmm~
Try yours here.

2011-08-27T15:45:00.000+08:00

小龟和小tor今天真在冷战中哈哈哈我真无聊
星期六已经过了一大半我什么也没做到
真是浪费时间啦！

2011-08-26T22:43:00.002+08:00

Met up with the ladies.
Nice chitchat sessions to catch up with everyone.
Love them all~

And thankyou ry for the presents,
Thanks for remebering me even though you was away (:
So nice of you~

The next meetup will be aft the exams i guess.
We shall meet soon, in Dec. I will wait, paitently.
It's just odd not seeing them almost everyday D:

(why the pics color looks so ugly in here, so sadd.)

2011-08-24T15:50:00.000+08:00

Learning to accept uncertainty~
Sometime, somethings, no matter how hard you study, you just wouldnt get it.

Wishing to see Aurora someday~

2011-08-22T00:38:00.002+08:00

Week3.
Im not there yet,
Gotta keep on pushing.

2011-08-22T00:35:00.000+08:00

Need to stop exposing so much of the emotional side to others.
Step up. Out of the comfort zone. And keep trying till i get it right.
Be brave. Be stronger. Be positive.

Need to plan and stick with the plan.
Got to keep going and never ever ever look back again~!

2011-08-16T19:13:00.003+08:00

Where are all the Singaporeans?
I feel like im in their country,
instead of them in Singapore.
Right, if they are smart, i shall try to be smarter.

Fighting~!

2011-08-14T22:47:00.001+08:00

My brain is failing me these days.
I keep forgetting what i want to do next.
How? I need help, any advice?

2011-08-14T13:45:00.000+08:00

Goodbye negative thoughts.
Quitting will never be my way out of things anymore.

Mentality determines your success or failure.
So whatever shit that im down w right now,
I just have to endure for 12weeks and that's it.
Things will start afresh again (:

One week down and 11 to go~

2011-08-14T00:36:00.000+08:00

I guessed im back on track, after talking to him and her.
Total apprieciate those friends that will support you at your hardest time.
Though we hardly meet, but i love you peeps so much, really (:

On the other hand, i just feel like saying
if you choice to let go, then i wouldnt hold on to you any longer too (:

2011-08-13T16:13:00.000+08:00

Im starting to doubt my capabilities.
Hating myself for having such low confidence
and this basically just screwed up everything (:

2011-08-11T11:12:00.005+08:00

Source (Awesomely amazing)

First day of school today at 1600 to1800.
Linear Algebra 1 at lt27.
Dun feel comfortable, i just dun like meeting strangers all at one go.

2011-08-10T17:54:00.000+08:00

Ahhhhh~ how?
Should i or shoud i not?
What should i do now?
Anyway school is starting tmr D:

2011-08-09T21:05:00.002+08:00

Okayee im back home right now,
and i sadly annouced that i missed the fireworks,
be it on screen or in real life. Disappointed.

Went for dinner at Tampanies for ahgong's birthday.
Brought camera out hoping that i could snap a few photos.
Ended up my catching of fireworks plan on the bridge failed.
Only left with the lasers in the sky. Disappointed max.
Next time, i will get a house that allows me to catch fireworks right back at home.
Sorry people, for those who i spammed, asking about the fireworks stuff.
Thanks alot though.

Four years back, i was standing there on the floating platform on this date.
Ahhhhh~ i miss parading so much. TT

2011-08-09T02:04:00.000+08:00

Talking to them about dreams kind of set me thinking a little.
Seriously having so many things i feel like doing but all seems so unrealistic.
And i seriously have no idea where to start. Im so dead right now.
Just dun want to lead a boring life, that's all.

Alright, im going to learn jap soon.
That is a start. But im just saying, dun take me for real.
I will consider first. Really.

2011-08-08T00:25:00.000+08:00

Im not ready for school and my future.
Well, this week is the first week, and i have no motivation to work.
I mean, going to school knowing that there wouldnt be familar faces waiting for you just sucks.
Yes, i know i know i will meet new people soon, but it's gonna be tough to meet true friends.
Cause you are in a different class for every module and the classes change every semester.
Im not that type who can freaking just click with someone just like that you know/

Distance will build up once we all set on our own journey,
But there will just be these few that you will love to bring along with you isnt it? (:

2011-08-06T14:22:00.003+08:00

One of mum's kpo friend called ytd.
And asked where i was studying.

Her daughter is going to Austraila for language therapy.
The kid of the other friends of theirs is going to London for music.
As for me, im just gonna stay in Singapore.

Not that bad, i know.
But freakingly London,
the place that i wanted to go badly.
And they are self sponsered!
Im jealous~!